甚麼時候我變了四十六歲了？跟爸爸媽媽，妹妹弟弟在西貢沙灘游泳，不就在昨天嗎？甚麼時候妹妹跟妹夫結婚二十年了？我不才跟她一起去試穿婚紗？
甚麼時候大姨甥長大成人，快要唸大學了？我剛剛才去接新生的他和他媽媽離開醫院回家呢！
甚麼時候女兒自己一口一口吃飯？自己坐在琴前作起曲來了？昨天我還拿著奶瓶餵她。
回頭一看，原來半生已過，原來不知不覺中，我把自己的生命注入在這裡那裡，造成歷史了。
我在這歷史中的位置是甚麼？
地上的生命不知道還有多久，我盼望的，是將來永存永在的生命，因為那時我不會再問「甚麼時候？」
「甚麼時候？」This is the question I've been asking in the last 2 months whenever I logged in to look for a new entry.
ReplyDeleteWelcome back, Amy!
> 地上的生命不知道還有多久，
> 我盼望的，是將來永存永在的生命
Don't be troubled. Despite it can never compare to that of above, life on earth is still great and worth cherishing. Joy is the true gift of Christmas. I pray that this presence of the liberating joy of God shines forth in your life on earth. God can never be glorified if we don't live in joy. Take care!
Patrick,
ReplyDelete你令我很感動，我不知道原來我有忠實讀者的。
雖然只活了四十六年，郤已經很倦，喜樂似是曾幾何時出現過，掌握過，經歷過的事實，暫時它不知去向。
That's why "Rejoice in the Lord always." (Philippians 4:4) came almost like a command. The 2 verses that follow may help to comfort you more:
ReplyDelete"The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." (Philippians 4:5-6)
Trust me, when you give up rejoicing and let your depression drags you away, it's difficult to get it back.
> 暫時它不知去向。
It'll come back, soon.