Wednesday, September 28, 2005

15 years of furry contacts

Meme was 15 years and 11 days old. That means only 27 years of my life that I have lived without Meme. She used to sleep in my bed with me, she tried to kick me off the bed because I was taking up too much of her space. We used to share food together, whatever I ate, she ate. So much for the dog-food-for-dog-only theory, she was a pure bred Basset, she lived for 15 years, who said human food is not good for dogs. The only food that she came to not liking in her old age were cucumber and squash, other than that, she ate anything, raw or cooked, including vegetables. She caught lots of cockroaches, but only caught a baby bunny once when we lived in Scott Air Force Base in Southern Illinois (Bassets hunts rabbits). She would not let go of it, our body-building neighbour forced her mouth open to get the bunny out, quite gross. Our first apartment was next to a cemetery, she used to run and run and run in the cemetery chasing squirrels. She once ripped a toe-nail out from running in the cemetery, it grew back, and that didn't stop her from running more. She would chase the squirrels up the trees, then she put her front paws up the trees and barked at them.
She unzipped my luggage and stole dried shitake mushroom, ate US$80 worth of the delicacy, I just brought those back from Hong Kong, I just got off the plane, left the luggage in the house to go and get some dinner. She stole shrimp cavier noodles, ate about two dozens, the last couple of dried noodle cakes she couldn't finish, she was too full. She dragged a whole pound of frozen raw ground beef off the counter-top, even she only stood about 15 inches tall, half hour later when we returned home, what's left was the plastic wrap and the styrofoam plate, not one bit of meat was in sight, she still beg for dinner that night, she didn't get any. She opened a tupperware box and enjoyed two dozens of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. She must be happy to see Dan left an opened two-pound bag of M & M's on the coffee table, only a few was eaten by Dan before we went out for dinner that night, she ate half a bag of the M & M's, that was a nice dessert for her. I guess she didn't finish all of it because it made her feel sick. She had chocolate looking poop for a day.
Several vets told us she wouldn't live another 6 months when she was about 10 and 12 years old, but somehow she outlived all the prophecies. She had ultrasound on her tummy, on her heart and her lungs. She was fine.
She like to take looooonnnnnnngggg walks, 2 hours was preferred, 1 hour is OK, not quite enough. She was a sloppy drinker, got to have a towel ready if you didn't want her to wet you all over your lap.
She was such a fun dog, I miss her very much.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

First day without Meme

Meme is gone. Yesterday, when I cleaned her wound, I found maggots in her wound, I killed some, but three went back inside. She was trying to scratch afterwards, obviously, she was quite uncomfortable. I knew it was time. We could take her to the vet and make her go through pain and have it cleaned out, but then the wound will even be larger and I don't think it will heal, and it is more prone to infection. I don't think want her to go through all that pain.
She hadn't been walking well in the past two weeks, she was slow before, but in the past two weeks, she was having difficulty standing up, and she couldn't walk across the room without laying down several times. She lost interests to go outside, she would go do her business and came right back home. She wouldn't even walk far enough to the grass, just stayed close to the patio. She was gradually losing control of her bladder. When she walked up to the patio door, she was anticipating the peeing motion, and she would pee inside the house, didn't make it outside.
We were to put her down Monday when the vet's office is opened, but I couldn't stand having to antipicate her death, it was too hard. I would much rather grieve the lost then to grieve the anticipation of her death. So Dan and I took her to an emergency vet clinic. Mrs. Iris Feinberg came over to stay in the house just in case Kioni woke up.
It was the most difficult thing to do. Meme was gone in seconds after the injection. The vet said her brain stopped functioning before her heart stopped, she didn't even realize she was dying.
This morning was very hard. I kept telling myself I didn't have to get up to let her out, I didn't have to feed her. When I came down with Kioni, the usual spot where her food and water bowl were was empty. The usual spots where she laid was empty, there were still fingernail marks that she made on the carpet from the night before, the indent of the pillow that she slept on was still there, but there was no Meme.
I saw her every week until she was one, I have had her since she was one year old. She was 15 years and 11 days old. She was born in Australia, moved to Hong Kong, lived there until 6, then move to the U.S., lived 9 more years, died in Illionis.
Undoubtly, she lived an enjoyable good life, the vet said he has never seen a Basset Hound this old.
She brought a lot of joy to my life, she made me laugh, she took long walks with me. She was my faithful companion when I first moved here, she was the only thing that reminded me of Hong Kong, she was my baby before Kioni was born. I love her.
Goodbye Meme. It is very hard to let you go. I know it is for your good, you are not suffering anymore, the tumors are not boring you anymore, your legs are not hurting anymore, your blindness is not affecting you anymore, and surely not the maggots.
You were a good dog, thank you for being with me through lots of ups and downs. It is hard to say goodbye, but there is always an end to life.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Ready to say goodbye?

Meme started to have serious difficulty walking two days ago (Monday). I was at home because Dan went to Minneapolis for Missions Orientation. I realize that Meme was not able to get up most of the time, and even when she could, she would walk for a couple of steps and then would fall down. She would bark because she wanted to get to the water or wanted to go out, but physically, she was unable to.
She is still eating well, last night she barked at 3:00am, I went downstairs and found her on the floor in the hallway, she was in the area where the runner ends, she couldn't get up because the floor is too slippery. I let her out, well, more like pick her up so that she could go. She then walked back into the house, couldn't walk a step further, just plop herself down right in front of the sliding door. She stayed there for a long while, slept some more, then she woke up licking her lips. I realized that she wanted water. I brought the water to her, she drank half a bottle!!! Then she slept some more. After some time, she wanted to get up again, but after taking one step, she fell down and stayed there for some more time until Kioni woke up at 6:40am.

It is so hard to watch my dog of 15 years struggle like this. I have, in my mind, thought about putting her down over and over in the past two days. I think I am finally a bit more ready than a month ago. However, I still don't know if she is ready. I don't think she wants to live like this, though. I just don't want to be sorry or wish I have done it two months later.

Monday, September 19, 2005

七月一日

二零零六年七月一日是我們結婚十年零一個月的日子,也十分可能是我終結在三一神學院事奉的日子。老板說要有個新舊人交替的日子,他強烈建議那日子是七月一日。雖然我一天不交說要離開,我老板也沒有我辦法,但是他一再強調要有個交替的日子,我也不好和他強辯。
我 聽見之後心中沉了一下,在過去四年來,全靠我在三一的工作,我和DAN才能夠交學費、吃飯、供樓、交水電費和醫療保險。在祺祺出生之後,我的工作就會變 得不大一樣了。老實說,我寧可在家作全職媽媽。但是現實不容許我作這個選擇,在過去的二十個月來我唯有乖乖的去上班。我不是我不喜歡我的工作,相反地,這 份工作十分有意思,也有永恆的價值。但是與作全職媽媽比較起來,就有天淵之別了。
想到明年七月一日我就不用再上班,心中有點高興,終於可以作全職媽媽了。但是生活費、供樓錢和醫療保險又從何而來呢?到時候我們籌款到菲律賓籌得怎樣呢?足夠我們生活嗎?樓賣得出去嗎?要把MEME人道毀滅嗎?
要到各州的教會去籌款聽起來就夠累了,更不用說要帶著才兩歲大的祺祺坐長途車到處去。這一切想起來就頭痛,唯有把一切交給神。
神既然把到菲律賓的意念放在我們心?,我們就看看祂怎樣為我們成就這一切細節。

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Crazy

Things have been going pretty crazy these days. A typical day is for me to get up in the morning, feed Kioni breakfast, get myself ready then rush off to work. Somedays when Kioni didn't get up until later in the morning, I can't give her breakfast, Dan will have to do it. Dan cares for Kioni during the day. After work I rush home and take over, so that Dan can work in the library on his thesis from 5:30pm untill mid-night, he then comes home and work some more. So in the morning, it is hard for him to get up to take care of Kioni with just a few hours of sleep. He cannot work on his thesis during the day, toddlers just need so much attention all the time. Dan also has to work on support team building. Hopefully, all these craziness will end when we head off to the Philippines, because I won't be working full-time, Kioni really prefers to have me around in addition to daddy. She cries every morning when I leave for work.

My boss is discussing with me the possibility of handing over my position to a new person we interviewed last week. He wants this to happen on July 1, 2006, that is good and bad. Good because I can stay home and take care of all the details for the big move to the Philippines. Bad is that we will not have insurance nor income, but we won't know if we can head to the Philippines yet since we won't know how support-team building will go by then.

Lots of things we have to lift up to the Lord, and depend totally on His grace.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Meme's birthday


Today is Meme's 15th birthday. Our vet said he has never seen a bassett hound that lives this long. Though she has been blind for 4 years and has tumors all over her. She still have a great sniffer though, she still loves to eat so much that she would wake up from a deep sleep whenever that is a trace of food smell around the house.

When I get off work today, I will make a pot of rice and chicken for Meme. She loves rice and chicken, and food is the only thing she enjoys now. She doesn't go for walks anymore, her joints hurt, and it is not fun when you cannot see what's going on around you.

We know her time with us is not going to be long, she sometimes has difficulty standing up, or maintaining her balance if she walks too fast. I have been praying that God will let her die of old age, like in her sleep, rather than to have me make the decision and make that phone call to make an appointment with the vet to put her down. It is hard to have to part with a friend who has been with you for this long.

I know God has not created spirits in animals, I do believe that God will have animals in heaven. Why won't it be? God thought that they are nice addition to the earth when he created it, why not in heaven? I don't think I will see Meme there, but I will have other animals to enjoy.

My co-worker Barbara put her 19 year old cat, Jamie, to sleep yesterday. It was quite an emotional day for her. She then buried him in her backyard underneath the lilac bushes where Jamie always loved to lay under. The whole family participated the 'ceremony', but that was not easy. She was still teary eyed this morning when we talked about it. Some people don't understand why we animal lovers cry this long and hard when we lose a pet. Well, the truth is, they are not just pets, they are part of the family for a very long time. In fact, I know Meme longer than I know Dan.

Even though I am well prepared for the day when Meme will not be with me anymore, but nothing will prepare me when that day arrives. I will grief, that's for sure. It is strange to talk about her death on her birthday, isn't it?

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Accepted

Dan and I are accepted by the EFCA-International Missions as missionaries to Cebu, Philippines. Our area of ministry will be teaching. We are in the process of support team building. Please see our website if you would like more detailed information, or photos of the school and the city we are going to: www.bush-family.info

In the middle of the EFCA-IM Candidate School in Minneapolis back in mid-July, we received news that Dan's father died of a massive heart attack. His body is cremated and we are going back to Michigan this weekend for the burial and a memorial service. We are not sure if his father was a believer, though he attended church regularly early on. He was only 57. Dan's parents are divorced, when dad died, he was living in South Carolina with his sister and attending U of SC for a BA.

School has started back at Trinity, my work involves a lot of academic advising, therefore, it has been non-stop for a while. Dan is under pressure of writing his thesis for the Master of Theology program, he will have to finish it by December.

Due to everything that happened, it has been difficult for me to concentrate for translation, I have tried to do a little bit at a time, but it has been challenging.

Prayers:

1) Support team building: pray that God will guide us to the churches and individuals whom he has ordained to join our support team, we know God has already provided, it is a matter of finding out who!

2) In the midst of all the stress that Dan and I have right now, pray that we will have peace and grace to handle everything that is on our plates.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

老虎、豆腐、底褲

養 育 祺 祺 佔 了 我 和 DAN 很 多 時 間 , 為 人 父 母 的 都 知 道 帶 大 一 個 孩 子 不 容 易 。 可 是, 其 中 的 歡 樂 是 在 別 處 找 不 到 的 。 今 天 她 說 了 三 個 名 詞 , 是 她 幾 個 星 期 前 就 學 會 了 的 ﹕ 老 虎 、 豆 腐 、 底 褲 , 但 是 說 出 來 三 個 名 詞 都 差 不 多 , 十 分 好 笑 。 但 你 若 是 用 心 聽 的 話 , 每 個 名 詞 都 是 有 分 別 的 。

一 個 月 前 在 我 們 開 車 從 明 尼 亞 波 里 斯 的 宣 教 士 訓 練 大 會 回 家 途 中 , 她 突 然 說 ﹕ ‘ 爹 爹 Na Nu。 ’我 們 問 她 Na Nu 是 甚 麼 , 她 也 沒 有 解 釋 , 只 是 說 了 之 後 就 微 笑 。 隨 後 她 又 說 ‘ 媽 咪 Na Nu, MeMe Na Nu’ 當 我 說 ‘ 祺 祺 Na Nu’ 的 時 候 , 她 就 輕 輕 的 笑 兩 聲 。 從 此 之 後 每 次 我 們 說 Na Nu, 她 都 興 緻 勃 勃 地 把 她 毛 公 仔 的 名 字 連 到 Na Nu 上 一 起 說 。 到 現 在 我 們 都 搞 不 清 楚 究 竟 Na Nu 是 甚 麼 。

今 天 晚 上 她 睡 覺 前 跟 她 數 手 指 , 我 一 邊 扳 開 她 的 手 指 一 邊 說 ﹕ ‘ 手 指 公 、 食 指 、 中 指 、 無 名 指 、 手 指 尾 ’ 無 當 我 數 到 無 名 指 的 時 候 , 她 都 大 笑 起 來 , 原 因 不 明 。

如 果 你 認 為 我 和 DAN 的 世 界 似 乎 是 以 祺 祺 為 中 心 , 你 觀 察 得 沒 錯 。 神 說 ‘ 不 可 敬 拜 別 神 ’ , 這 個 誡 命 十 分 重 要 , 因 為 甚 麼 在 我 們 生 命 中 佔 上 最 多 時 間 的 , 很 多 時 候 就 成 了 我 們 敬 拜 的 對 像 。 有 些 人 是 工 作 , 有 些 人 是 男 朋 友 , 有 些 人 是 某 種 活 動 。 對 我 和 DAN來 說 , 這 個 小 小 的 人 兒 佔 據 了 我 們 的 生 命 的 好 大 部 分 , 若 不 是 神 的 這 個 誡 命 的 提 醒 , 把 祺 祺 看 為 ‘ 神 ’ 是 多 麼 的 容 易 啊 ! 但 是 神 說 生 命 是 神 所 賜 的 , 祺 祺 只 是 神 交 託 給 我 們 照 顧 的 一 份 大 禮 物 , 我 們 並 不 擁 有 她 , 神 才 是 她 的 主 。

Monday, August 15, 2005

Music to my ears




Kioni said 'Happy day' to me on my 42nd birthday, it was music to my ears.








And boy, did she like to have a taste of my Baskin Robins ice-cream cake, without a plate, without silverware, that was just fine with her.


Monday, August 08, 2005

Life should not be busy

I don't think God created us to run around all day trying to fix this and do that. Yes, we have to make good use of our time, but what is making good use of our time if we don't even have time to spend with the God who created us and the people that God put in our lives for us to love? Love trumps all things. Kioni will not remember how many important theological lessons I have translated for Third Millennium Ministries, however, she will remember mommy taking a walk with her. Thankfully, Dan is getting a dosage of Kioni in the mean time. I am sure she will remember daddy taking walks with her in the morning, building a fort with blankets and chairs in our living room, blowing bubbles and drawing with chalk on the patio.
We all have sacrifices to do, but what should be sacrificed? There is a time and a season for doing certain things, the season for raising Kioni presents itself once, and before you know it, it is over. I already miss the tiny baby with no teeth smiling at me, very soon, I will miss the toddler who can only string two or three words together, and cry out for mommy when she is awake from her nap. I wish I have all the hours in the day to just hold her whenever she asks me to, and just nuture her to the best of my knowledge, but I don't. I know I am going to miss out. How I wish this season of working at Trinity will past soon! Even though I enjoy my work very much. There is a time and seaon for everything.

Friday, August 05, 2005

不 可 思 議


家 中 的 老 狗 和 小 孩 都 不 足 三 尺 高 。 郤 是 很 多 歡 笑 和 怒 氣 的 來 源 , 那 麼 小 的 東 西 , 竟 然 有 那 麼 大 的 能 力 影 響 我 的 情 緒 , 真 是 不 可 思 議 ! 神 看 我 們 想 必 也 有 幾 分 相 像 的 地 方 , 人 在 神 眼 中 算 得 是 甚 麼 ? 祂 竟 然 愛 我 們 到 為 我 們 死 在 十 字 架 上 , 真 是 不 可 思 議 !

七 月 中 到 明 尼 蘇 達 州 接 受 播 道 會 國 際 差 傳 部 的 宣 教 士 訓 練 , 兩 個 星 期 長 的 訓 練 對 我 這 個 怕 極 開 會 的 人 來 說 甚 為 難 過 , 加 上 祺 祺 因 受 新 鮮 事 物 吸 引 而 不 願 吃 東 西 , 眼 看 她 越 來 越 廋 , 心 都 痛 了 。 兩 個 星 期 就 像 兩 年 那 麼 長 。 會 議 過 了 一 個 星 期 之 後 , 接 到 DAN弟 弟 們 的 電 話 , 說 他 們 爸 爸 突 然 因 心 臟 病 去 世 了 , 他 差 兩 個 星 期 才58 歲 。
他 的 死 引 起 了 許 多 問 題 , 想 不 到 人 死 後 才 是 各 種 問 題 的 開 始 。 人 際 關 係 的 複 雜 , 人 生 命 的 脆 弱 , 真 是 不 可 思 議 !
老 爺 的 過 身 令 我 心 中 更 急 切 地 為 我 自 己 的 父 母 祈 禱 。 感 謝 神 賜 他 們 長 壽 健 康 , 但 是 他 們 還 未 認 識 造 他 們 的 主 , 為 他 們 死 的 耶 穌 基 督 。 我 不 可 以 說 ﹕ “ 他 們 還 ‘ 年 輕 ’ 。 ” 生 命 在 神 手 中 , 我 不 知 道 我 們 何 時 要 離 開 這 個 世 界 。
我 的 禱 告 是 神 在 爹 媽 身 邊 放 置 大 膽 向 他 們 作 見 證 的 基 督 徒 。 我 們 作 兒 女 的 有 時 候 真 的 很 難 叫 他 們 好 好 聽 我 們 的 。

Monday, April 11, 2005

FInal STP Post

Dear Special Prayer Team,

Thank you for your patients over the past several weeks. I just received tonight at 10:30 PM the official grade on my major comprehensive exam. The grade was recorded as a straight PASS. (If you will recall the possible grades on the exam were: Pass, Pass with recommendations, Conditional Pass, and Fail.) The receipt of a pass means that no further work is required from me regarding making it over the major comprehensive exam hurdle.

In addition to the major comprehensive exam, on March 29th was the oral defense of my ThM thesis. My official thesis readers PASSED my thesis contingent on the making of a few adjustments (they thought that the adjustment could be accomplished in 4 hours, but it has taken me longer). The contingency of a few adjustments seems to be the norm for masters and doctoral level projects in the US and UK, so no big deal.

Anyway, all this means that I’ll be able to walk and officially graduate on May 13th without any hitches. Hopefully by next week I’ll be able to turn my attention once again to support raising for our mission to the Philippines.

Thanks to all 40 of you for praying for me through this ordeal. I’m really glad that it ended well and that the Lord answered our collective prayer with a double YES. It has also been very delightful and encouraging to see the people of God functioning as the church in a very special way. Again, many thanks—we did it together by His grace!

By grace,
Dan

P.S.: This is the final message from me with relation to the Special Prayer Team.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

SPT 07

Dear SPT,

It is finished! About 1-hour ago the order to stop writing and print was given. (The exam was held in one of divinity school’s computer lab). Over the 3 hours of the exam I wrote 6 full pages (typed and single spaced)
answering 5 questions. Overall, I feel that I performed quite well. That is, I believe that I passed!

The school handbook notes that there are 4 grades that one can receive on the exam. In order to get a pass on an essay question, a score of a “B” is required. The categories of grading the entire exam are as follows:

Pass – Student learning objectives related to the major comprehensive examination have been met or exceeded. No further work is required.

Pass with Recommendations – Student learning objectives related to the major comprehensive examination have been met; though potential areas for improvement exist. Recommendations given are optional, but in the best interest of the student should be completed. No further work is required.

Conditional Pass – Student learning objectives related to the major comprehensive examination have not been met; and remedial work is required. While no section has been Failed, remedial work which may include additional reading and/or writing must be submitted before the major comprehensive exam
is rendered completed. Upon successful completion of examination conditions, the department chair forwards a memo to the Records Office indicating the conditions have been met.

Fail – Student learning objectives related to the major comprehensive examination have not been met; and one or more sections of the exam must be rewritten following department guidelines. The retake must be completed at the next regular scheduled time with exceptions granted only by the Academic Exceptions Committee. Note: a Fail on even one section of the Examination renders a Fail on the entire exam until relevant sections can be rewritten.

My gut feeling is that I passed all of the essays outright; at the very least, I got a pass with recommendations. I don’t believe that I failed any section/essay question. When I opened the exam and looked at the questions I felt a rush of confidence, for I discovered that I was likely able to answer well any of the 11 questions that were posed. It was comforting to learn that my study method covered the right material at the appropriate level. I chose the following 5 questions because I could remember more minute details:
(1) Describe the biblical and historical development of the doctrine of the Trinity.
(2) Describe and evaluate the theological views concerning the imputation of original sin (per Rom 5).
(3) Describe the person of Christ and the heresies that the Council of Chalcedon dealt with.
(4) Describe and evaluate the various views of the Lord’s Supper.
(5) Describe and evaluate the various views of the rapture.

The studying method for this exam, the pace and energy of study, the recall this morning at 9:00 am, and the successful outcome of the exam, where all possible because of the grace and goodness of God. I am excited that the Holy Spirit brought you and me together as a team to pull off what presently feels like a win! I also believe that the Lord ordained that the manner in which this exam was to be accomplished for me was through hard work supported by many prayers and reliance upon him. The time limitations on studying for this exam made it tough, but your prayers made it possible.

Thank you for supporting me through this ordeal. I’m glad it is over!!!

Cheers,
Dan

Sunday, March 13, 2005

SPT 06

Dear SPT,

This is the last week that I will need to intensive prayer support. The exam is coming this Friday (March 17th). Show time is 8:45 am; the exam begins at 9:00am.

Last week was productive. The tasks I set for myself were all accomplished. It was a lot of work, but each day a little more was whittled down until there was nothing left. I finished going through my 125 pages of typed study notes and the creation of study outlines. Outlines for 33 questions were created (using 48 typed 4”x6” cards [8pt font], but don’t worry I have reading glasses). I was also able to work through all the comments on my thesis from my second reader and prepare a “defense draft.” The draft will be printed out
tonight and turned in on Wednesday (right on schedule).

I feel a certain peace about the coming exam. I hope it is due to both a certain level of preparedness and faith in the goodness of God, but sometimes I wonder if it is not just a surrendering to the inevitable. The former certainly seems more likely, yet either way, know that I am ultimately surrendering-with-faith to His divine providence. This is most important!

This week my plan is to study by continually reviewing my note cards and returning to read my note pages. I’ve also begun an exercise regiment, which hopefully will continue with more intensity after this week (I know Amy would be happy if it did). I’m going for a run around campus before I begin my studies, and then I plan to go for another run late in the evening to take my mind off studies. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday will include study sessions that will go till midnight. On Thursday, my plan is to do some light
reviewing, watch a movie, and get a bunch of sleep. I’ll wake up early on Friday morning, review my note cards once more, pray, and then sit for the exam.

Please stay with me this week. You can pray primarily that my studying will be efficacious with regard to content retention. I understand all the material; it’s now a matter of being able to get it out in detail and into an essay. Please also pray that I will think well when I see the exam questions on the day of the exam, so that I will be able to draw upon what I’ve studied to create quick and appropriate outlines to guide my essay writing. I’ll only have about 30 min. for each essay question, so there is no time to dilly-dally.

Lastly, please know that I am greatly encouraged knowing that all of you, close to 40 strong, are out there lifting me up in prayer. I do feel the Lord’s strength as the “day” approaches. I read Psalm 28 (Chinese) before bed last night and was reminded of the journey that I’ve been on over the past few months . . . I hope my journey ends like David's in the psalm. David begins the psalm with a cry for mercy, but ends in a wonderful course of praise. With your prayer support my cries of mercy have turned into praise. Let’s continue to pray that all will end well, that we may join together in a few days and offer praise once more to God for his faithfulness and goodness. "We know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28). Only 4 days to go!

By prayer,
Dan

Friday, March 04, 2005

SPT 05

Dear SPT,

This week was good in many ways. Amy, Kioni, and I returned to health and I continued to make progress in my studies (although my four days with the Air National Guard retarded my progress a little bit). Having completed my major textbook review the week before, this past week I began the process of reviewing my notes and making some outline study cards. As far as specific progress is concerned, I was able to review a little bit more than half of my notes and create 15 outlines. Work is not done yet, but tonight I am a bit more closer.

My plan for the coming week is to finish the current note review and outline creation task, then to move into the tough project of drilling myself repetitively through the outlines and rereading the notes for memorization.
My study to-date has made me thoroughly familiar with all of the content. The trick now is to remember all the pieces and parts so I can come up with them again when answering the essay questions.

The work thus far, although stressful, has been rewarding in two senses: (1) I am finding the review to be a wonderful pedagogical tool, refreshing many things first studied long ago (please note I took my first systematic theology course way back in 1997); and (2) I am being continually reminded of many truths about God and the Christian faith that perhaps time and distractions tends to make distant from our immediate conscious. If any of you have been praying for my deepening connection with God through the review of the material, know that your prayers are being answered.

In my personal devotions, in the material studied, and in some of my brief conversations with some of you this past week, I have been continually reminded of God’s faithfulness and commitment to finish the good work that he has begun. Many of you have even encouraged me by confessing that you believe that I will do just fine on the exam. I do hope that the Lord is communicating through his people! I do have moments when I begin to worry again, but I have posted Bible verses on the kitchen cabinets to remind myself of what you and God have been saying to me. Thinking on these verses has been very helpful. I have continued to make further progress in trusting in God’s goodness and providential care (I really liked reviewing again the doctrine of God’s providential care; what timely material). I shall continue to do my part in being faithful to study hard and pray heavily!

Please focus your prayers this week in the following manner: (1) memorization, memorization, memorization; (2) continued progress in spiritual growth in the midst of this wonderful review of evangelical theology; (3) stamina and energy for the week; (4) refreshing and meaningful breaks with Amy and Kioni; (5) a sense of peace, calmness, and confidence that I am “getting it”; and (6) reasonable progress on amending my thesis per my second readers comments; (7) retention, retention, retention. Please be sensitive to the Spirit and feel free to pray in whichever way he leads you, for he knows my needs best.

Thank you all for your faithfulness and stamina over the past several weeks. Your prayer support has really been wonderful and likely more meaningful than you can know. Know that I am truly thankful. Please remain strong in your praying as I endeavor to do so in my faith and studies—only 13 more days to go!

By prayer,
Dan

Friday, February 25, 2005

SPT 04

Dear SPT,

Another week has come and gone, and your prayers continue to be very much appreciated. Not as much was accomplished this week in comparison to last week, but perhaps it has been a blessing in disguise. I shall explain . . .

This week I was able to complete in full the reading and note taking from Millard Erickson’s Christian Theology. But I have not had the energy to move beyond this major milestone and wonderful review to formulate possible exam questions and begin study of my own notes. Where is the blessing? Well, the
sickness that has engulfed me and my family, and caused everything to slow down, has forced me to get more sleep that I have been accustom to over the past several months. So perhaps, despite the coughing and sniffling, this week has been a bit of recuperation in preparation for another big push (although Amy has not slept well).

My plan for this coming week is to begin studying my notes and the formulation of mock essay outlines. I am planning to push hard this week on the studying, but there will be a little bit of a twist thrown into the schedule. This week, on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, I will be pulling duty with my Air National Guard unit in Peoria, IL. I should still have my evenings free for study, but I expect the study time to be reduced.

You can pray for me this week in the following ways: (1) pray that I’ll be able to formulate good and appropriate mock questions and essay outlines (10 to 12 should do the trick); (2) pray that I’ll be able to have a good and robust review of my notes; (3) pray that my reviewing of notes will translate into good retention; (4) pray for the full renewing of my family’s health, as well as mine; (5) pray for my 3-hours drive to and from Peoria, IL; (6) the second reader of my thesis will return his comments to me this week, please
pray that they will be of a nature that I can deal with them quickly without taking much time from my exam studies (the defense draft of the thesis is due on March 15th and the oral defense is scheduled for March 29th).

Thank you for your prayers. I am feeling the Spirit’s peace, although there is still much hard work to do. Thanks for keeping with me on this—only 20 days to go!

By prayer,
Dan